Thread:Simmia/@comment-14231386-20150813095347/@comment-1731233-20150815011150

I apologize for being inactive, but there are still some things I would like to finish first. I'll notify you specifically when I no longer need the admin rights.

I do have to refute some of the statements though. I explained that it has nothing to do with BSR nor the people that attacked me specifically...

The visitors...they also compose of a lot variety of people. I communicated with the people, and came to the conclusion that it was better to remove it temporary + gather people to help moderate the comment sections. The general consensus was that the anons keep spreading false info, and resorted to insults a lot of times during conversations.

I believe I talked to Blackto about this as well. I have said again, and again that someone could help me come with the regulations. I got no help whatsoever. This was the one thing I did wrong. Had I stayed active and gathered the people, then Blackto would've stopped complaining about the comment section being gone.

There were people who liked it, and people who criticized my actions as well. I had to accept both of them, and deal with it alone. So it was kind of shocking when you put me in that way. If you have said that "Samhiuy proposal isn't working out, and he isn't active anymore. So I believe it is better to reinstate the comment sections, and work out a different way to deal with it", then I would feel much happier about it. It pains me to see the same "remove comments because of BSR" thing again...and again.

It's my fault to have never gave anyone the required knowledge to take after me. Despite wanting someone to simply help draft up a list of regulations or criterias for adminship rights, there was simply no one else to do it. In the end, I have done everything alone. Even though I tried my best to communicate lots of people in and outside of the Wiki, it gave the impression that I could do everything by myself. Surely, this hit me very hard in the back, and I ended up being entrusted with all the talks.

It was difficult, difficult talking through various people. It was difficult having to join another group (Chinese Wiki group), ask to be affiliated, and then help out with various things on their sites. It was difficult having to deal with the entire community by myself. All the criticism of the Wiki eventually finds its way to me. Why? Maybe because I put myself to it. Having became the spokesperson, I had to accept all the criticisms.

I have people constantly telling me to do this and do that. Seeing how hopeful some people are for the Wiki, I thought it would be nice to achieve as much as I can. Perhaps being too sensitive to other people's emotions, ironically, also managed to make me insensitive to some people's emotions.

It really reminds me of the previous times. This happened over and over again. I have people praise me, and are happy to entrust the responsibility upon me. However, I never actually had anyone willing to help me with the trivia stuff. I'm always the one writing the proposals, and drafting up structures/plans for future work.

My passion in turn shuns people away from me. There are people that intentionally do nothing to help me, and criticize me all the time. People always tell me this don't work, that don't work, and that also don't work. The unfortunate thing is...they do work. It never worked out because I was alone. If I have motivation, I could get it to work by myself. As you can see, things didn't work out regarding the comment section the moment I lost the motivation and dedication. I didn't see things through to the end again. I'm really sorry about it.

I do have to say it's quite a fun experience this time though. At the very least the communication is way better. At least you guys trusted me to do my work. My peers from the past would mock me at all opportunity, and doesn't care about the amount of hard work I put into things. So yeah, they have never trusted me at all. I would always be kicked out of leadership positions because I'm not as "confident" as others.

Oh, last thing. Someone should really get the adminship criterias ready, and bureaucracy rights should not be given out easily. It generally has no effect on editing (since you can access basically everything with just admin rights already), and the only thing bureaucracy rights are useful for, in regards to editings, is to change the rights of bot accounts so that you can set them as bots "officially". These bots will do anything you ask it to, as long as you know how to code them.

Since bureaucracy rights deal with user rights, it is quite dangerous to give it out. This is why I specifically ask for sysop rights (adminship) and not for bureaucracy rights. You can't remove someone as a bureaucrat unless you ask the Wikia Staff to. So take care when dealing with these rights.

There are also some templates I would still like to work with. However, I'll put more time into doing art so I can do the other designs sooner. I will personally draw the cover image, and the custom pointers myself. Of course, I can also add designs to the search bars to make it look more fancy. It won't be crappy art, as I'll actually go learn to draw game designs (like those game concept arts). There quite a lot of people I can learn from.

Also, I need to socialize and gather enough support to get into the Honors College of my University, so I will need to take more time off. For now, I would still like to keep the admin rights. My motivation should be higher after I rested a bit more, and I apologize once again. When I'm done with all the MediaWiki/CSS codes, I will come and ask you to remove the rights since I can do the rest on my own.

I have really let a lot of people down with my absense, and I would love to apologize to RpM_Rigby. He was so enthusiathic about making the offline program for Asphalt 8. It's like a Wiki, but offline and on desktop. I was supposed to help out, sigh. There is also the other app for Android made by Mana (or is it Manas? xD).

And, and! There is also the guy who suggested that the Wiki needs to make sure no one buys the Alfa Romeo as one of the starters because it isn't good compared to other cars in C Class (at the start). There are people who want the comments gone, people who want the mobile site to be better (the guy worded it wrongly, and asked for a mobile site even though the Wiki automatically makes itself suitable for mobile. I assume that he wanted a "mobile" version as in exactly the same as the desktop site. Meaning that he wants the site to look the same, and not different, since the actual mobile sites disables all the feautures).

Oh man, there are so many criticisms and praises. I feel like I can remember them all, but also cannot do so at the same time. Steven Hu is supposed to connect the Community with the Wiki after I have further polished it with newer designs. I also joined the Asphalt 8 Facebook Group, but didn't pursue to grow a Wiki support group there haha.

There are so many things left to do. However, there are also so many people expecting something good out of it. So many conflicting perspectives, as well as many opportunites that arises by understanding those perspectives. The praises/criticisms are also indication that there are many people that supports the Wiki. Everyone wants the Wiki to be better - this is the one thing that is undoubtedly true.

So I apologize for all I have done, and I do wish you guys the best. I do not think that the Wikia can survive without you guys as well. Sometimes I am really amazed when you guys keep working on doing the clean ups while I spend my time leisurely enjoying new templates. I do find it unfair of me to do so, so I have always contacted others first to show them I care about them as well. Even so, I won't refute the fact that it is impossible to completely make everyone feel happy.

Please keep working hard, Simmia, Hadam, and Luci. A slacker like me will come back to pick my own unfinished work up sooner or later.

P.S. I really threw a lot of curveballs there. I don't even know what am I writing anymore. Am I supposed to refute the statements? Am I supposed to be pitiable? Or am I supposed to thank people? All I know is that these are all my feelings.

I'm really sorry.